Happy Contentment

I rerealized something I already knew, but funny how you actually forget what you know and often act contrary to it.

Anyways i was bummed by the thought that maybe i won't get all the things I want and I have to be content with that. In fact I need to be content even if I lost everything I had. How is this possible? I can't just be happy when I don't want things to happen that do happen. But then thats not really what contentment is.

For example, pastor Paul Pak gave a message this last week about suffering. In this message he talked about his 3 year old son Nathaniel Isaiah who has down syndrome. But then this situation wasn't suffering for him, well maybe at first, but in fact I'm sure he counts his son as a blessing.

The thing about contentment is it doesn't require you to be happy about what is happening. You can be content and happy, but being happy doesn't mean your content and as such, not being happy doesn't mean that you are not content.

I don't know what You are doing God, and sometimes I don't like it, but help me to trust and be content.

(gosh i really don't want to do this report right now haha)