Getting my thoughts down in the absence of classes

I don't think anyone reads my blog anymore because I haven't written in it for a million years. And those who just might are probably close friends so I guess I can be a little open here.

I keep a lot bottled up yet present myself to be in better shape than I am. But honestly I feel pretty beaten up and I'm sure it is because my walk has not been so healthy lately.

Thats it.

Thats my conclusion. I know I write really long posts because I'm not good with my words but thats all there really is to say. If I am right with God then I know that I am an object of love and grace and should respond in love and grace according to the fruits of the spirit. The more I can do that the happier I will be.

I consider the disciples, who took joy in their persecution because that suffering was for Christ. So literally anything you do for Christ can be joyous. But how much of what I do is specifically for Christ?

I get sad because of the way things affect ME, but really, how do those things affect Christ? Certainly I am human so the things that affect me will continue to push and pull me but if I can get back to clinging to my foundation, I can not be so easily moved.

I haven't shown it lately but I love my foundation. I love my Saviour. I need to remember that. It is time to be better, to do better, to get back to my foundation. Know how I know it's time? Because it is always time.

This was mostly to encourage myself by putting my thoughts down but if by the off chance someone reads it, I would appreciate your prayer and I will pray for you.

"Now you know what it's like to have kids"

So today was Berean SOW primary group activity... Bubblefest at the discovery center. Sorry if this isn't particularly coherent, I'm tired and have a massive headache. Why the headache?

well...

I was driving Zachary and Jonathan back to the church office from the discovery center. They were counting down the time it would take to get to the church office.... only.... they gave me 10 seconds. So they got to 0 by the time i left the parking lot. At this point they begin to chant zero zero zero zero zero zero.... in unison of course. Raising the volume of radio serves to proportionately raise the volume of the two in the back of my car.... 15 minutes and a billion "zero zero zero"'s later we arrive at the church office and they finally stop.

Zachary comes up to me and says "Now you know what it's like to have kids."

Interestingly enough... I still can't wait (after this headache goes away)

It's thursday

And I haven't had a day off since new years >_<