People (dis)Pleaser

Today...(yesterday? tuesday?) was like EV day for me.  I went with Berean again and I tagged along with Travis, but this time I actually helped out a bit and talked to people a little.  I'm totally capable of EV-ing on my own but..... I dunno.....

I'M NOT ASHAMED OF THE GOSPEL

but then what am I afraid of?  I guess I just don't want to offend anyone or get into an argument.  I generally try to be a people pleaser and sometimes more than I should.  I certainly won't compromise my faith to please anyone but then why am I nervouse to talk to people!  Argh I irritate myself.  So dumb, seriously, am I so selfish that I would rather please people than present the gospel to everyone I see?

Well that aside I did talk to a few people.  I remember Sarah, who professes to be catholic but then she seems to disagree with the denomination.  Looking back I wish I would have suggested that maybe God is convicting her to look elsewhere (and maybe slip her a Berean flier).  I talked to a Muslim guy, whose name I didn't catch.  He didn't really want to talk to us.  I wonder if he was trying to make us go away or if he really has read the bible several times.  Thats more than I've read it! (...failure).  Lastly I talked to Jay.  I love Jay.  He's tried Christianity but he didn't feel "moved."  He doesn't think faith is something that can be explained rationaly, which is hard for him as a university scientist.  He seems interested though and acknowledges the importance of a spiritual life.  I gave him my email.  He was thinking about coming to friday bible study with me.  I hope he emails me.

After that I had a speaking exercise in my upper div writing class where I was supposed to talk about my families background, or a hobby of mine, or a life changing experience.  Too be honest I kinda like talking about my families background from a samurai lineage to immigration and integration into a fading Japanese community to internment camps to service in WWII.  I could also talk about snowboarding, cars, motorcycles, tv shows, movies, video games, various instruments etc.  But how could I pass up an opportunity to share the most life changing experience ever, when I accepted Christ.  It was really hard, because everyone else talked about their hobbies or their personal immigration to the states.  I followed speeches on scuba diving, la lakers, pipe smoking, beer, immigration from spain, from iran, but honestly Jesus held his own.  I still received applause like everyone else even though I was the only serious one.  One guy wanted to know what church I was going to.  I hope three minutes was enough time to plant a seed.  I wish I could be more like Paul.

I hope those things were good uses of my time since I skipped my other classes and work and still have to pull an all nighter for this midterm.  Well, whether that was a good use of my time or not, any more blogging probably isn't.

I love blogging.  Josiah encouraged me to journal but I guess I just like typing better than writing.  I like writing too but I think I'm more intentional and it takes me much longer haha.  oi vibrational mechanics