It is finished

Finals that is

And school almost, well pretty much.  I start working full time this Tuesday, for the rest of my life haha.  School seemed long but then if you think about it, I've been in school for 18 or so years, but I have about 40 or so years to work.  I'm gonna have to switch that up a bit haha.

I'm so thankful to have been able to go to college and get a degree, and thankful that somehow God allowed me to get an engineering degree.  To be honest I'm not sure how I made it?  I don't even think I learned that much.

I'm thankful I'll have an opportunity to continue learning, that Talbot actually called and emailed me to let me know that I haven't finished my application haha.

I guess it might be a lesson learned.  I already knew but I guess I forget pretty often.  I don't like when things are broken, or even a little off.  My coffee table opens up but if people hit it wrong the parts seperate and I'm always putting them back together.  I have to fix a drawer that fell off its hinges or isn't sliding in the way its supposed to, like the drawer under my tv stand.  When people ask me for help on something, I can't help to see it all the way through, if its directions, I need to know they made it to their destination, if its car stuff I need to know that it works or I do it myself.  Maybe that may sound like something good but sometimes, the best way to fix things is not to be super proactive about it.  Somethings aren't in my control and somethings can only be fixed with time.

I got in trouble for the first time in awhile and I really tried to resolve it so everything would just be good again.  But sometimes the best thing to do is to just give people space and time, especially when I'm the cause of the aggrivation.

I thought I was a patient person, but I realized I'm only patient when I have to put up with something.  And maybe its my pride that makes me think that I'm some kind of martyr to do that.  But when I feel like I should fix something, my patience goes out the window.

Things I need to pray about

Sometimes waiting it out is fixing it, but ultimately theres no right or wrong answer.  I can't just do this in this situation or do that in that situation.  The more I grow, the more I need to be in prayer and discerning in how my choices work for or against God and His kingdom.  When I'm focused on Him and not being a nice guy I will make better decisions.  After all, I don't remember anyone calling Paul a nice guy.