What we do? Who we be?

Granted I just posted I found it an easy decision to post again.  I feel like most of us are very indecisive and are always caught in the middle.  What I mean is, we make choices on what to do and who to be.  Generally these choices have two extreme answers and we are stuck somewhere in between.

I feel like decisions regarding what to do are so much easier that decisions on who to be.  The thing with deciding what to do is once you make your decision you do it.  Though we are usually in the middle with what we should do, we will lean one way or the other.  Should I go to CCM or do hmwk? Should I go on missions or secure a job?  Do I eat McDonalds or Taco Bell? Do I make this potentially life changing decision or no?  We should lean towards an answer, and thats the answer that glorifies God most.  But even if we are too close to the middle that we can't tell, we are still able to pray, able to read His Word, able to seek counsel, able to make a discerning choice.  And when that choice is made it is done and you can only learn to make better more discerning choices in the future.

But when chosing who to be, it is not so easy as to just make a decision.  I want to be more passionate, more intentional, laboring and suffering more for Christ, I want to be wiser.  But all these things I can't just decide to do or be.  And I know this isn't just me, too often we say we want to be more humble or gentle or content but stop there.  These decisions go so far beyond that because you have to be intentional about keeping up with your decision, its not a one time thing.  You have to put yourself in the way of wisdom and consider your growth in everything.  In trying to be wise I need to hang out with older people and I need to be mindful of my decisions, even the apparently insignificant situations.

I guess I've just come to realize that when I make a decision to do something I need to continue to fight myself and make my decisions for God's glory not mine.  And while the Spirit works in me to grow me, I need to do my part in putting myself in the way of growth and being intentional in pursuing a Christ-like life.  I can't ask for prayer if I'm not going to be serious about my growth.

No more excuses, no more trying, much more doing...