Getting my thoughts down in the absence of classes

I don't think anyone reads my blog anymore because I haven't written in it for a million years. And those who just might are probably close friends so I guess I can be a little open here.

I keep a lot bottled up yet present myself to be in better shape than I am. But honestly I feel pretty beaten up and I'm sure it is because my walk has not been so healthy lately.

Thats it.

Thats my conclusion. I know I write really long posts because I'm not good with my words but thats all there really is to say. If I am right with God then I know that I am an object of love and grace and should respond in love and grace according to the fruits of the spirit. The more I can do that the happier I will be.

I consider the disciples, who took joy in their persecution because that suffering was for Christ. So literally anything you do for Christ can be joyous. But how much of what I do is specifically for Christ?

I get sad because of the way things affect ME, but really, how do those things affect Christ? Certainly I am human so the things that affect me will continue to push and pull me but if I can get back to clinging to my foundation, I can not be so easily moved.

I haven't shown it lately but I love my foundation. I love my Saviour. I need to remember that. It is time to be better, to do better, to get back to my foundation. Know how I know it's time? Because it is always time.

This was mostly to encourage myself by putting my thoughts down but if by the off chance someone reads it, I would appreciate your prayer and I will pray for you.